Yeh I hear you... last Chemo did that to me... right before, called my brother up crying, knowing what I was about to go thru...I rhetorically asked him to come get me and take me away so I didnt have to go. PS He lives in Bay area, me near NYC.... Oh and ps it sucked being SOB and waking up with intense sternal pain, gastric pain and throwing up bile and blood, I'd take a puck off my ankle any day then then repeat that stuff and I wasnt near death.