I'm jobless, my brakes went out yesterday and I had to leave my van downtown(I'm SO lucky I made it to a safe spot where it won't get towed), it's been raining in Nashville for 3 days so I can't even GO down to my van and bleed the brakes and see if that fixes the problem, I had to go to Metro Action Commission to get money so I don't get kicked out of my apartment, now I have to go to Welfare(yuck!) and get food stamps so I don't starve, my wife is still dead, my yellow kitty Simon won't come into the house so I can feed him properly(he'd rather hang out with the alley cats, I think he's still mad at me that I got him neutered), I have hepatits C and I'm always tired, turning yellow and going to die before I'm 40 because I have never gotten treatment for it because I'm poor(thanks for throwing me out into the streets of Buffalo when I was 15, Mom, you b!t*#), I just CAN'T quit smoking, and I miss Jessica terribly and the best days of my life are already over. But I am SO thankful for those 10 years with her, given my short time on this planet in this body.