'"I hesitate to say I wanted to die," the 42-year-old Malarchuk said from his home an hour south of Reno, Nev. "I jump around with that one when I think back on it. It was more a conscious effort to say, "I need to end this. I need to sleep. I need to stop my head from spinning. I was pretty deranged."'
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